Author Archives: suzetta von c

Darkness at the Edge of Town

I’ve been through a dark time recently. So, I ask myself, do I write about it? The darkness? The vulnerability? It seems deeply personal somehow. A secret. Not in good taste to share this part of me with you dear readers. I want to be seen as well and on to it. My representative representing. […]

She’s on the Crack

I’ve been thinking about a relationship I’m in. It’s complicated. And I’ve been here before. This time it’s with an iPhone. Just as the quick hit of nicotine distanced me from any uncomfortable (all of them were) feelings in danger of surfacing, these stylish and expensive white and silver devices give me swift and efficient […]

I Ache In The Places Where I Used Play

I’ve been thinking lately of my experience with pain. Physical pain. I spent many years running from pain of any sort with the help of a combo of substances. I’ve spent much of my recovery from drug addiction observing emotional pain, learning how to recognise it and not be afraid, practicing the 12 steps, going […]

Sing Me Back Home

The morning: So we’re in the car, me and John, driving West to Kellyville Ridge to meet my brother. My brother whom I haven’t seen for fifty plus years. Separated by adoption and circumstance. I’m doing it. There’s a blue and white Sydney sky above and those spindly dark Australian trees along both sides of […]

Orphan Girl

“I have no mother no father No sister no brother I am an orphan girl” (Gillian Welch) I’ve always known I was ‘adopted’. Before I even knew what the word meant, I knew the word. And that it applied to me. And not to other members of my family. I was special. Different. It was […]

Desire

  “Do you have the courage to bring forth the treasures that are hidden within you?”                                                                               […]

For Christ’s Sake Santa

Emotional anniversaries like Christmas can be a risky business because they open the portal to memories, conscious and/or unconscious. The sadness’s and losses and loves that are an inevitable part of life, and which I have spent a large chunk of my life avoiding, begin lining up at the opening and jostling for attention. My […]

Rivers

“There’s a river of love that runs through all times There’s a river of grief that floods through our lives It starts when a heart is broken in two By the thief of belief in anything that’s true But there’s a river of love that runs through all time”              […]

Jill Palmer

Our beloved Jill slipped away quietly on Monday. We were surrounding her bed, us dinosaurs and Sara. Shaz was holding Jill’s hand as we sat and told stories and laughed and reminisced about how we met her, the places we had worked, how Jill had touched us and what she had taught us. Jill turned […]

Murder she wrote

Dear Friends I went to the dentist recently for a filling in an upper left molar. I had noticed a sensitivity in that area so when at the hygienist for a once over and clean, I asked her to check it out. She agreed it needed work, and an appointment was made to see the […]